Verse 1:
As I was moving along in my walk with God, I began to chase the wrong things. It's easy to fall into this when you rely on the physical to reach the spiritual. As I went down this road, I realized that I could really only go so far on my own - there's a wall that is keeping me from the spiritual future I was called to pursue. As it turns out, the workmanship of this wall seems familiar - the workmanship is mine; the wall is myself. I need God to break me down.

Verse 2:
Just like the US Army promotes our self-strength in being all that we can be, I wanted to do that for myself - on my own. The struggle to let go is found in my understanding of the need to surrender to God, but still pushing along on my own steam. Regardless, all of the dreams that I have had within my personal agenda never fail to leave me longing for something more. I'm losing steam in this chase, and am finally drawn to the understanding that I can't do anything without first surrendering, and allowing God's sovereignty to rule in my life.

Verse 3:
It's finally time for me to see all that God is and all that I am not. God got to me, and broke me down. Now I can begin to seek His Will before my own.

Pre-Chorus:
By confessing our longings to see God clearer and to know God more, we truly do begin to chip away at our wall. That's the power of the Spirit of man speaking with the Spirit of God. As broken walls we can be re-built by the hands of God into the people of God.

Chorus:
If this wall is going to be broken (if I am to be breakable), I simply cannot remain in possession of anything that once made me feel so secure in myself. This includes my earthly loves, my pride, and my personal will, but we all have our own set of 'powers' that keep us from submitting and surrendering before God. The more we hang on to, the less breakable we are; the less breakable we are, the more difficult it is for God to finally bring us into His Kingdom.

Overall:
After about three days of God seemingly teaching me the same concepts again and again, I realized that He was trying to get to me about getting to Him better. I've been incredibly blessed to be part of the body of believers at Central Presbyterian Church, and the inspiration of some wonderful people there have led me to finally identify the largest blockade between where I am and where I need to be: ME. Now, it's practically impossible for me to get anywhere on my own accord by sheer willpower alone - especially when I'm dealing with the object of myself - so therefore the only method of progression would be to hand myself over to God, in who's hands I can be changed into what I truly need to be.

James 4:4-8
"You adulterous people, don't you know that friendship with the world is hatred toward God? Anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God. 5Or do you think Scripture says without reason that the spirit he caused to live in us envies intensely? But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says: 'God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.' Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you."

Philippians 3:4-8
"If anyone else thinks he has reasons to put confidence in the flesh, I have more: circumcised on the eighth day, of the people of Israel, of the tribe of Benjamin, a Hebrew of Hebrews; in regard to the law, a Pharisee; as for zeal, persecuting the church; as for legalistic righteousness, faultless. But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ."

Mark 10:26-27
"The disciples were even more amazed, and said to each other, 'Who then can be saved?' Jesus looked at them and said, 'With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.'"

"I Surrender" written by Ryan Kavalsky, © January 20, 2006